Growing up, Christmas for me was the very best. Every Christmas Eve we'd drive around looking at the town lights, & dad would read us the birth of Jesus in the bible. We'd order a pizza and watch "A Christmas Story."
That night I would lay awake, staring at the ceiling wondering if Santa was real or if my parents were lying to me. I never would go & see cause I didn't wanna ruin anything. My sister would pull all the covers off of me, so I'd lay there fuh reezing my a$$ off. In the morning, some one would wake us up & we'd go stare at the presents under the tree. Chaos would ensue, & Dad would be snapping photographs of us all.
After the grand opening of the presents was over, we'd go eat home made blue berry muffins, made by mama. They were truly the very best. My mom can bake like cuhh razy.
All the family would come during the day.
I remember one Christmas my grandma gave me rolls of toilet paper because I told her that was the softest kind I've ever touched. LOL. Nice Granny.
I just love Christmas. Jesus is a good person to celebrate. :) I haven't been spending enough time with him lately.
Someone has got me open, & I'm forgetting to give love back to Jesussss.
Right now I'm listening to the song playing on my blog. "Unthinkable" by Alicia Keys & Drake...& I have to say I would be no where without music. I can always find a song that describes how I'm feeling...& this song would describe how I feel perfectly.
Sorry I haven't been posting very frequently. I've almost run out of things to say. I just have absolutely NOTHING to say these days. School is about the same every day, & work is too except for today I went with Lacy to interview these twin brothers who own a barber shop, and a man that's been getting his hair cut there for 50 years. That was pretty interesting.
Other than that, I've been doing absolutely nothing. Just listening to music.
Which leads into: The "One Love" video was AMAZING! Trey up close & personal.
And then, his EP came out today or yesterday...I haven't bought it yet. I tried to go buy an iTunes card but they didn't have any for 10 dollars. So I bought Burger King instead, lol. It's only in iTunes till the 15, so I better go get it!
That's how I feel right now about this boy. The song is perfect depiction of my feelings.
I wish he could see how much I care about him...how much I wish he would notice me & my feelings for him. But he's so busy...so busy. I don't think he'll ever notice me. I'm like a spec on his radar, unfortunately. I've never felt this way in my life & it hurts. It hurts knowing that you'll probably never talk to him, or be seen by him.
People will laugh at this, because it IS absolutely ridiculous. I'm talking about *whisper* tremaine neverson. So yeah, I know the whole thing sounds stupid...but I truly care for this man. I care if he is safe on the planes he takes. I care if his concert goes good or bad. I care if he gets a sore throat. I CARE. Girls go crazy over him, but I feel like they go crazy for the wrong reasons. Yeah, he's a star...but he's so much more than that in my eyes.
If only he knew how I felt...if only he could see inside my heart...
This is serious to me, so don't laugh at my feelings. I'm yearning for him to come to Arkansas because maybe if he looks in my eyes he can see my heart. I care about this man, i'm telling you. His music keeps me going...because feeling like this truly hurts & takes a lot out of a person.
I look in his eyes & I see hope. I see what he could give to another person, & I feel like I have so much to give as well.
Call me crazy, but I want this. I want him...& not because he's "Trey Songz" because I see his heart...& I see how good of a person he is..& I can't help what I feel.
This has nothing to do with mac & cheese but I GOT MY MAC! I was scared to open it because that's a LOT of epicness all at once. It might've blown me away.
Right now I'm tweetin' like crazy & listening to music as always. My eyes are getting hella droopy but I'm tryin to fight it. I haven't been keeping up with my blog like I should. To be real, I haven't had ANYTHING to talk about recently. It's like all my ideas took off & didn't leave a note or nothin. I've been creepin on Trey so much I haven't been having a life, which is sad, but so true. I get stuck on something & that's the end of every thing else.
I'm still fighting for him to come to Arkansas though, believe dat.
School is going well. I have good grades so that's a plus. The social life is sad. I miss my Fayetteville friends:( Haley might come & see me over Christmas break tho! That's my girl. I have to see my God son:) I haven't even seen him yet, which amazes me. Distance keeps us all apart. DIstance you suck!
I love sitting on the bed typing on my laptop. This helps the ideas flow out better. It's about time to wash my face off & brush the teef & hit the sheets.
I can't believe Christmas is almost here! I don't even want anything, really. Just a Victoria's Secret gift card, lol.
Right now I'm watching Troy Taylor. I'm not really part of TTU, but hey I follow Trey so I tune in to Troy's UStream every once in a while. We're meeting his son, Quincy! He's super adorable...he's 9. Lol.
Masta Ace is DOPEEEE. His lyricism is on point, & he just makes me feel all good inside, lol. The song "Beautiful" makes me smile, & "Acknowledge" makes me want to punch someone out. He has that power over me.
Life right now seems like it's in slow motion. Slow motion for me, move it slow motion for me. Ok, sorry about that:) Anyway, I don't know why life is going so slow, but it is. Graduation dayneeds to hurry on up because I've never been more ready for anything in my life. High school was a mess for me, lol. It was fun for the most part but after I moved to Batesville every thing changed. I don't have many friends here, so I hang out at home a lot...lame. I'm ready to meet new people & have FUN. Be a teenager! When I'm in Batesville I never get in trouble, which is good but still I want to be bad. lol
Thanksgiving holiday was good...I ate too much of course. I saw my mom, stepdad & his family, & my brother. I'll get to see my sister, Brady & Mark during Christmas. I cannot wait, I miss my Brady boo. I get my mac daddy next week & I cannot WAIT. Love.
Confident, classy, cool, writes, breathes deep, loves, heart beats slow, talks too fast, dreams too much, loves too quick, smiles too easily, cares too much, grammar nazi, music connoisseur, magazine addict, nail polish fiend, Nike high top collector. Me in a nut shell.
